I know... but still alive
Oct. 19th, 2006 | 10:29 am
location: home
mood: 
...distressed
music: Lejla *Hari Mata Hari
It has passed long time, from the last time I written something...
I have little time, I have to go to Uni and I'm almost all day there.
Besides on the weekends I'm at my boyfriends and don't have a connection... but I also have to study so... it's better that way.
I wanted to tell you that i have a dog now.
His name is Tornado Karstia (Son of My Camelot Tito and Piece Of Piece Karstia). He is so lovely and lovable. He runs so much and he is my familly's baby. he is full of entusiasm, but also a little carefull when he doesn't know the place... he is scared of everything.
He is this beautiful color... and he was one of 5 pups the couple got... the other 2 went to Germany and one went to Italy and another one, I think (not sure) stayed in Slovenia. We left him the name Tornado, even if I'm the only colling him with the whole name... mom and dad call him Tori, while my bf calls him Torno... maybe my brother uses sometimes Tornado... but he usualy calls him Tori.
Now i have to go... because I have to take a shower and look a little the stuff we did during the week...
Matta ne
~Aya (Saya)
I have little time, I have to go to Uni and I'm almost all day there.
Besides on the weekends I'm at my boyfriends and don't have a connection... but I also have to study so... it's better that way.
I wanted to tell you that i have a dog now.
His name is Tornado Karstia (Son of My Camelot Tito and Piece Of Piece Karstia). He is so lovely and lovable. He runs so much and he is my familly's baby. he is full of entusiasm, but also a little carefull when he doesn't know the place... he is scared of everything.
He is this beautiful color... and he was one of 5 pups the couple got... the other 2 went to Germany and one went to Italy and another one, I think (not sure) stayed in Slovenia. We left him the name Tornado, even if I'm the only colling him with the whole name... mom and dad call him Tori, while my bf calls him Torno... maybe my brother uses sometimes Tornado... but he usualy calls him Tori.
Now i have to go... because I have to take a shower and look a little the stuff we did during the week...
Matta ne
~Aya (Saya)
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u.u
Apr. 8th, 2006 | 12:39 pm
location: Europe
mood: 
... apathetic
music: Black Daimond *Stradovarius
oh god...
it has passed quite a lot of time from the last time I had written something.
but hey, between rping, studying and everything I didn't have quite time to do a decent post.
even now I don't know what to write down... really...
i'm alive...
my boyfriend is working today
we are later going to see dog's competition that is held near our home.
I'm completly in Japanese Gremmar... and it's killing me...
It's just, that I have so little time for my self, I don't even have time to write or something like that... or just bake a cake ç_ç
I also find on![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
reebchan 's Journal this ^O^
Gtg now... mom's calling me...
Matta ne
~Aya
it has passed quite a lot of time from the last time I had written something.
but hey, between rping, studying and everything I didn't have quite time to do a decent post.
even now I don't know what to write down... really...
i'm alive...
my boyfriend is working today
we are later going to see dog's competition that is held near our home.
I'm completly in Japanese Gremmar... and it's killing me...
It's just, that I have so little time for my self, I don't even have time to write or something like that... or just bake a cake ç_ç
I also find on
reebchan 's Journal this ^O^
|
Gtg now... mom's calling me...
Matta ne
~Aya
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Mardie Gras X°D
Mar. 1st, 2006 | 09:14 pm
mood: 
...artistic
music: What's this *Nightmer Before Christmas
The carnevall of Venice X°D
So the photos I already promised X°D under the cut X°D
So... hope you liked it ^O^
Matta ne
~Aya
So the photos I already promised X°D under the cut X°D
( Other Photos *_* )
So... hope you liked it ^O^
Matta ne
~Aya
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*PHOTOS OF A DEVIL X°D*
Feb. 26th, 2006 | 02:59 pm
mood: 
...flirty
music: nothing at all
Again here...
It's not that I have so much time that I can write down much.
I begin again the university, have to go every day to venice and back... it's quite ok, sleepin' in the train ^O^
Anyway, making this post, because yesterday i went to a party with my bf (who... got drunk u.u;;;;) and friends and I was dressed up as... X°D a devil X°D...
I made few photos, so I'll put them under the cut...
Matta ne
~Aya
It's not that I have so much time that I can write down much.
I begin again the university, have to go every day to venice and back... it's quite ok, sleepin' in the train ^O^
Anyway, making this post, because yesterday i went to a party with my bf (who... got drunk u.u;;;;) and friends and I was dressed up as... X°D a devil X°D...
I made few photos, so I'll put them under the cut...
( PHOTOOOOOS )
Matta ne
~Aya
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(no subject)
Feb. 18th, 2006 | 08:52 pm
mood: 
...sleepy
music: sound of the TV
HA!
Today i'm completly out... Don't know what's happening to me, really... >o<
And Today i hate the weather... it just makes me leazy and I hurt all over my body >o< hate days like this...
So now...
Sotlen fromlarlar_ulysses' journal !!!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=Ayaka+Yagam
Ha! Do it please ^O^
And Also... THIS!
EDIT: Copy and paste... to know ^o^ just... wanna know... you know ^O^
1) Does my username suit me?
2) Is my journal's title cryptic or descriptive? What do you think it means?
3) Does my journal expand your knowledge of me?
4) Do you think my bio describes me well?
5) Which of my interests surprises you the least?
6) Which of my interests surprises you the most?
7) Which of my interests needs explaining?
8) Which of my userpics suits me best?
9) Which of my userpics suits me least?
10) Which of my userpics needs explaining?
So, this is it... going to bed... even if it's only 9 pm =O= need sleep... really much...
Matta ne
~Aya-chan
Today i'm completly out... Don't know what's happening to me, really... >o<
And Today i hate the weather... it just makes me leazy and I hurt all over my body >o< hate days like this...
So now...
Sotlen from
larlar_ulysses' journal !!!http://kevan.org/johari?name=Ayaka+Yagam
Ha! Do it please ^O^
And Also... THIS!
EDIT: Copy and paste... to know ^o^ just... wanna know... you know ^O^
1) Does my username suit me?
2) Is my journal's title cryptic or descriptive? What do you think it means?
3) Does my journal expand your knowledge of me?
4) Do you think my bio describes me well?
5) Which of my interests surprises you the least?
6) Which of my interests surprises you the most?
7) Which of my interests needs explaining?
8) Which of my userpics suits me best?
9) Which of my userpics suits me least?
10) Which of my userpics needs explaining?
So, this is it... going to bed... even if it's only 9 pm =O= need sleep... really much...
Matta ne
~Aya-chan
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~YAY
Feb. 9th, 2006 | 08:25 pm
mood: 
...HAPPY
music: Baptism of blood *Malice Mizer
MADE IT! PASSED ITALIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I'm sure on 2 exams (History 1 and italian)
Now I'm sure on 2 exams (History 1 and italian)
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(no subject)
Feb. 9th, 2006 | 10:16 am
mood: ...sleepy
music: Wind *Naruto OST
Had to do it... find it on larlar_ulysses' journal!
larlar_ulysses' journal!|
Ayaka Yagami -- [noun]: A person who is constantly high 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com |
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Feb. 8th, 2006 | 03:15 pm
mood: 
...frustrated
music: The voice of silence in my room
Well...
it's 8th february...
already in february,.... few days to 9 monthsversary with my bf and few says to the Valentines....
Ya... and still 3 exams to go...
I must say I failed history 2 (but face the truth, because of the history 1 I didn't have time to open the book)
I also failed Japanese - and Yesterday I did it again (still don't know if I passed or don't =O=)
( The day of the Japanese Exam! )
Then, the results of the Italian exam aren't out...
And I failed also the history of religion (I must say that was sooo stupid of me... I forgoten all the things I studied)
I didn't fail geography... I just went out of the class room when I saw the questions...
So that leaves me with 3 exams to go... =O= if I passed Italian, of wich I'm sure I did... but Hay.. they said that the prof sometimes doesn't look at exam... she just... writes over COPIED.
( Some photos.... )
( Dear Cupid.... )
Matta ne
~Aya
it's 8th february...
already in february,.... few days to 9 monthsversary with my bf and few says to the Valentines....
Ya... and still 3 exams to go...
I must say I failed history 2 (but face the truth, because of the history 1 I didn't have time to open the book)
I also failed Japanese - and Yesterday I did it again (still don't know if I passed or don't =O=)
( The day of the Japanese Exam! )
Then, the results of the Italian exam aren't out...
And I failed also the history of religion (I must say that was sooo stupid of me... I forgoten all the things I studied)
I didn't fail geography... I just went out of the class room when I saw the questions...
So that leaves me with 3 exams to go... =O= if I passed Italian, of wich I'm sure I did... but Hay.. they said that the prof sometimes doesn't look at exam... she just... writes over COPIED.
( Some photos.... )
( Dear Cupid.... )
Matta ne
~Aya
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Open up your mind
Feb. 3rd, 2006 | 04:23 pm
mood: ...bitchy
music: Gensomaiden Saiyuki OST
『Open Up Your Mind』
「幻想魔伝 最遊記」より
歌 ：mirai
作詞：Mitsui Yukiko, Sheila De Niro
作曲：Takahashi Kei'ichi
編曲：Takahashi Kei'ichi, "Snow Man"
もしも今すべてがうまくなんて いかない 負けそうになる時だって
瞳を閉じれば 心から 世界が 見えてくる
In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side
孤独な夜でも 迷い恐れる時も
今はひとりでも この足で どこまでも歩いていけるはずだから
Just hold on tight 瞳閉じたなら
Look inside yourself 輝きがあるから
Yes, 全て 信じて欲しい
You can take another look from the other side
Just hold on tight 心くじけても
Reach into your soul 明日が見えなくても
Yes, 生きる 強さがあれば
You can take another look from the other side
愛の全てに出会うまで…
この世界で生き抜いていくための 強さを
あなたに願っているから
心の扉を開いたら 何かが見えてくる
Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even thought you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are
星の命なら永いけど
いつまでも同じこの日々がくりかえすわけじゃない
明日は誰にも見えない
Just hold on tight 瞳閉じたなら
Look inside yourself 鼓動感じるから
Yes,“MIRAI”信じて欲しい
You can take another look from the other side
Just hold on tight 心くじけても
Reach into your soul 明日が見えなくても
Yes、違う 世界があって
You can take another look from the other side
愛の全てに出会えるよ…
Just hold on tight 瞳閉じたなら
Look inside yourself 鼓動感じるから
Yes、“MIRAI”信じて欲しい
You can take another look from the other side
Just hold on tight 心くじけても
Reach into your soul 明日が見えなくても
Yes、 違う 世界があって
You can take another look from the other side
愛の全てに出会うまで…
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*sigh*
Feb. 1st, 2006 | 04:10 pm
mood: 
...discontent
music: Something on radio
...
* Feel lonley
* Feel stressed
* Feel nobody love me
* Feel stupid
* Feel ... well just feel...
*shig* I'm to much Jun today... she is depressed so she is depressing me...
*sigh* I'm so emotonlay broken because of this exams... that even a character I play has so much infulence on my behavior...
*sigh* ç____ç I want something... I want ...
Am I too dependable on my BF? I think I am...
I'm also too dependable on my BF... I mean Best friend... that up was my boyfriend...
I mean... I need desctraction... but gosh... Buddhism certanly doesn't help much... with all that dates and have to know when where and who in Japan uses it...
*sigh*
( Memes.... )
( Photooooos! )
*sigh*
Matta ne
~Aya
* Feel lonley
* Feel stressed
* Feel nobody love me
* Feel stupid
* Feel ... well just feel...
*shig* I'm to much Jun today... she is depressed so she is depressing me...
*sigh* I'm so emotonlay broken because of this exams... that even a character I play has so much infulence on my behavior...
*sigh* ç____ç I want something... I want ...
Am I too dependable on my BF? I think I am...
I'm also too dependable on my BF... I mean Best friend... that up was my boyfriend...
I mean... I need desctraction... but gosh... Buddhism certanly doesn't help much... with all that dates and have to know when where and who in Japan uses it...
*sigh*
( Memes.... )
( Photooooos! )
*sigh*
Matta ne
~Aya
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tests ^o^
Jan. 31st, 2006 | 10:08 am
mood: ...sleepy
music: Breat No More *Evanescence
I found out that doing this huge things is relaxing... so I'm doing it and this one I took them from the solomons_wolf's journal.
( Questions ... and answers )
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
( Another one )
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
( And let's do them again )
And yes.... this is all ^o^
solomons_wolf's journal. ( Questions ... and answers )
----------------------------------------
( Another one )
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
( And let's do them again )
And yes.... this is all ^o^
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Another one
Jan. 30th, 2006 | 02:58 pm
mood: ...angry
music: Going Under *Evanescence
I feel so.... STUPID...
Ok, I knew the moment I got the exam of japanese, before I begin to do it, that i failed... and I was ok with it...
But... now i feel stupid... I STUDIED REALLY MUCH for that stupid History exam... knowing mostly everything... HOW THE F*** DID I MANAGE TO FAIL IT?!
I'm angry with myself... ok, i can regive it on 10th... SO WHAT??? Will i be able to do it... I'm so angry... and I don't know what wnet wrong... >o<
I'm believing that the two exams that i have to give in few days on 2nd and 3rd... will go the same... I'LL FAIL THEM... as everything else...
I'm still waiting for the resoults of History 2 and Italian... but... I do shorly failed that two too...
I HATE IT... AND I'M STUPID!!!!
Matta ne
~Aya
Ok, I knew the moment I got the exam of japanese, before I begin to do it, that i failed... and I was ok with it...
But... now i feel stupid... I STUDIED REALLY MUCH for that stupid History exam... knowing mostly everything... HOW THE F*** DID I MANAGE TO FAIL IT?!
I'm angry with myself... ok, i can regive it on 10th... SO WHAT??? Will i be able to do it... I'm so angry... and I don't know what wnet wrong... >o<
I'm believing that the two exams that i have to give in few days on 2nd and 3rd... will go the same... I'LL FAIL THEM... as everything else...
I'm still waiting for the resoults of History 2 and Italian... but... I do shorly failed that two too...
I HATE IT... AND I'M STUPID!!!!
Matta ne
~Aya
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...failed
Jan. 30th, 2006 | 11:30 am
mood: 
...blank
* Have to redo the Japanese exam...
* Have to study
* Have to kill the internet connection provider
* Have to think something new
* Have to update Jun's journal
* Have to... go to the kitchen taking something to eat and drink
Study makes fat...
Matta ne
~Aya
* Have to study
* Have to kill the internet connection provider
* Have to think something new
* Have to update Jun's journal
* Have to... go to the kitchen taking something to eat and drink
Study makes fat...
Matta ne
~Aya
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Books ^0^
Jan. 26th, 2006 | 04:43 pm
mood: 
...bouncy
music: My Last breath *Evanescence
I find this test on skyearth85 and she is a friend of a friend, so I took it ^o^ because I didn't have anything to do... or better... I don't wanna study... or better say: i'm taking a break.... so I do something long and quite interesting ^o^
( books ^o^ )
skyearth85 and she is a friend of a friend, so I took it ^o^ because I didn't have anything to do... or better... I don't wanna study... or better say: i'm taking a break.... so I do something long and quite interesting ^o^( books ^o^ )
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;___;
Jan. 24th, 2006 | 08:58 pm
mood: ...pessimistic
music: Everything Burns *Anastacia ft. Moody
I falled........
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Am I stupid?
Jan. 20th, 2006 | 02:19 pm
mood: ...angry
music: Radio
Ok...
I hate it when it's this way...
I have to stay home and study...
He went home so he could get better... because he has a feaver
I ask him not to go out so he can actualy get better...
I call him... HE IS OUT, HE IS SHOPPING!!!
IS IT ME THAT AM STUPID, OR... IS HE AN IDIOT??????
Matta ne
~Aya
p.s. why the hack am I writing everything down? =O= Maybe it's the only way to pass over my angriness >o<
I hate it when it's this way...
I have to stay home and study...
He went home so he could get better... because he has a feaver
I ask him not to go out so he can actualy get better...
I call him... HE IS OUT, HE IS SHOPPING!!!
IS IT ME THAT AM STUPID, OR... IS HE AN IDIOT??????
Matta ne
~Aya
p.s. why the hack am I writing everything down? =O= Maybe it's the only way to pass over my angriness >o<
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=O=
Jan. 18th, 2006 | 12:20 pm
mood: ...depressing days
music: Join Me In Death *Him
Going creazy!!!!
In a week I have exams... and I have an ill bf,...
AND I STILL DON'T KNOW ANYTHING OF JAPANESE... AND THE FIRST EXAM IS JAPANESE!!!!!!!!!
=O= Kill me!!!!!
In a week I have exams... and I have an ill bf,...
AND I STILL DON'T KNOW ANYTHING OF JAPANESE... AND THE FIRST EXAM IS JAPANESE!!!!!!!!!
=O= Kill me!!!!!
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Stupidity of males
Jan. 14th, 2006 | 11:29 am
mood: ...annoyed
music: Something on radio
Argh
I just called my bf who went out.... not to controll him, my mom asked if he could bring home few things for lunch...
And I called him, he sad he had sit down and ordered some drink...
While two days ago he sad to me, he didn't want to go to take a drink before 18.01 because he DOESN'T have money...
I hate it when he does this way... men... oh god, why do they have to have this genetic problem, to be sometimes stupid, and hurt us without even knowing... I'm not hurt because he is out and I'm in studing... i'm hurt because when I asked him, he said he didn't have money... but when somebody else calls him... he has money...
>o<
and I do have to study too much >o<
Miao
~Aya
I just called my bf who went out.... not to controll him, my mom asked if he could bring home few things for lunch...
And I called him, he sad he had sit down and ordered some drink...
While two days ago he sad to me, he didn't want to go to take a drink before 18.01 because he DOESN'T have money...
I hate it when he does this way... men... oh god, why do they have to have this genetic problem, to be sometimes stupid, and hurt us without even knowing... I'm not hurt because he is out and I'm in studing... i'm hurt because when I asked him, he said he didn't have money... but when somebody else calls him... he has money...
>o<
and I do have to study too much >o<
Miao
~Aya
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Kami-sama <o<
Jan. 12th, 2006 | 02:54 pm
mood: 
...worried
music: Join Me In Death *Him
Kami-sama, I subbsribed to the last two exams I had to do in less then a month... I'm worried...
On 24.01 I have Japanese - written exam
on 25.01 I have Oral Japanese exam
on 27th I have history modul 1, history modul 2 and italian (yeah f***** 3 exams in 1 day)
on 1.02 I have cultural geography
and
on 3rd I have History of the religon and philosphy of Japan...
I'm so gona die.... it's 12th and I don't remeber nothing EVEN IF I STUDY FOR MONTHS...
I'm so not gonna pass
X_x
I'm not feeling like writing something decent now... I just depressed myself to no endings... maybe I'll be ok after this masacre, and I have to pass them all, if not mom and dad are gona do food for cats out of me...
On 24.01 I have Japanese - written exam
on 25.01 I have Oral Japanese exam
on 27th I have history modul 1, history modul 2 and italian (yeah f***** 3 exams in 1 day)
on 1.02 I have cultural geography
and
on 3rd I have History of the religon and philosphy of Japan...
I'm so gona die.... it's 12th and I don't remeber nothing EVEN IF I STUDY FOR MONTHS...
I'm so not gonna pass
X_x
I'm not feeling like writing something decent now... I just depressed myself to no endings... maybe I'll be ok after this masacre, and I have to pass them all, if not mom and dad are gona do food for cats out of me...
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Yes or no... don't know
Jan. 11th, 2006 | 11:29 am
mood: 
...contemplative
music: Welcome to my Truth ~Anastacia
Because I begin to paly in that RPG, I just got this mania of Junora, I have this impulse to write one down, not a long 100 paged fic, just a little cute fic in few pages, somethin' like Jun is depressed, knowing that Sora loves Yama, and knows she couldn't get her, but then, while she is at home listening to music Sora comes to her,... to talk...
Anyway, the biggest problem is not writing it down, it's my grammar and the spelling... well, that can be arranged I just give it tokitsune_aoi to correct it.
The other thing I would like to write/read (hearlarlar_ulysses) is somethin on Jun and Daisuke, like a sibling talk like normal people without fighting or teasing...
What about Jun? Well i'm working on her new post, where she will tell everyone she got work in this cute local, dressing something like maids (you know, black dress - mini skirt, white apron and white thingie in her hair), but before of that, I needmaru_maru, to say if it's ok... she need money because of one thing I have in mind, but again also for that I need to talk to maru_maru, maybe I'll just leave a mex in the com to her, so she can tell me if it's ok, or have I to change few thingies...
~nya
Ayaka
Anyway, the biggest problem is not writing it down, it's my grammar and the spelling... well, that can be arranged I just give it to
kitsune_aoi to correct it.The other thing I would like to write/read (hear
larlar_ulysses) is somethin on Jun and Daisuke, like a sibling talk like normal people without fighting or teasing... What about Jun? Well i'm working on her new post, where she will tell everyone she got work in this cute local, dressing something like maids (you know, black dress - mini skirt, white apron and white thingie in her hair), but before of that, I need
maru_maru, to say if it's ok... she need money because of one thing I have in mind, but again also for that I need to talk to maru_maru, maybe I'll just leave a mex in the com to her, so she can tell me if it's ok, or have I to change few thingies... ~nya
Ayaka